Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in xnot_the_onex's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, January 21st, 2004
12:11 pm	Hope you have time... Insane... One word for how today was. Woke up, went to community service and all I had to do today was take down a Christmas tree, went to school, and thats where everything started gettin fucked up. I got to school at about 2 (since I go to night school), as everyone was getting outta class so I was sayin hi to everyone, and I saw Lacey and Alli. Lacey ran up to me and gave me a hug and we said our hello's. Alli on the other hand, my BEST friend, ignores me... I was like whatever, shes pissed off about something, shell get over it. So about 6 o'clock rolls around and Im the only one at school, so I call my uncle to come get me. He comes, I get in the car, and he tells me that my aunt Terry and cousin Brandon are at the house...whom I havn't heard from in 10 years. And he also tells me that my other aunt who just had a lung transplant that went wrong, is doing alright for just gettin off life support at 11 last night and shell make it for at least a week. We get home and I meet my aunt and cousin. My aunt is chill but kinda whacky, and my cousin is cool as hell. I go in my room, and started gettin ready for A.J to come get me to go chill, and my cousin comes in and we start talkin about the past, and what we do now, and all that stuff. Before I met him, I thought he was gonna be some little preppy goody goody kid, but hes not. I have alot more in common with him than I thought I was gonna have. Anywayz, they go home, and Im still waiting for A.J. I go in my room, and my mom comes in, crying, tellin me that my aunt (her younger sister) just passed. What the hell? Last I knew she was doing alright and that she was going to make it for at least another week, and she just drops dead. Just like that. So since my mom is crying, I start crying, and so on and so forth. And now Im here. Sittin on my ass...not waiting for Gay.J. to come anymore cuz I give up on that kid, and I dont know if Alli is still mad? I hope not. Definately not my day, thats for DAMN SURE. Well Im off to bed, gotta get up for community service tomorrow...bleh. Goodnight xoxo **R.I.P Aunt Cindy** YOU ARE LOVED AND WILL BE DEARLY MISSED! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, January 12th, 2004
3:17 am	One sheep...Two sheep... Once again, it is 3 in the mornin,high off my ass, and I havnt gottin a wink of sleep. The first thing my mom does when she walks in the door from work is yell at me (as usual)about how I AM gonna go to bed tonight at a decent hour. I havnt gone to bed at a decent hour since I was 10. Well I wouldnt say that. I do go to bed, I just dont go to sleep. She says its a habit. I say its insomnia. Another one of our aruguements/differences. I layed in bed from 11 pm till now, listenin to music, and doing absolutely nothing with the time that I have. I called a few people. As usual, James is drunk and out partyin, and wantin me to come out. Brenden is lyin in bed doing the same thing Im doin. And everyone else is sleeping. Hmmmm...sleep...whats that again? LoL well, I guess Ill go and TRY to be like a normal person and sleep. Goodnight :) xoxo Current Mood: high Current Music: This is Halloween-Nightmare Before Christmas (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 11th, 2004
9:16 am	It's weird having my uncle living with my mom and I. I think its for the best. Its alot better with a guy around the house (cuz then i dont have to do as much :) ) Today was the first day that we actually hung out. It wasnt bad. Woke up at noon, went golfing, came home, then went to the park and played a lil basketball with my uncle. needless to say, he got his ass handed to him in both golf and basketball. lol...but the whole day, just like the rest, all i could think about was my ex. it sucks, ya know. being in love, and they feel the same way, but it just wont work out at the time. Him doing his thing, me doing mine. If only he knew that I would do anything for him. All i really need right now is someone to be there, someone to make me laugh, someone to hold me when im sad, ya know...that stuff. But i guess it will take some time for him to realize I'll be by his side through anything. Well, im off to bed. goodnight Current Mood: lonely Current Music: Sex and the City (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 10th, 2004
12:21 pm	Always there...Never here That guy that I can't love I'm looking at him right now Imperfection fills his eyes Flawless lies within his dreams That guy that I can't love He bears scars from his past Never knowing what lies ahead Yet trying to never look back That guy that I can't love Wonders what he needs Everything seems to be a lie And what seems forever never stays That guy that I can't love Searches til his last breath To find what is meant to be....A love for just himself... Current Mood: confused Current Music: Smile Empty Soul~bottom of the bottle (Comment on this)